Quite simply.. my head feels like sh*t! Went out last night to the department xmas do My 'I won't be drinking' thoughts went out the window withthe first smirnoff in my hand and went downhill very fast after that. Staggered in at 2am today.

Once again been reminded why I hadn't had a drink since the 28th September. Pictures will be on-line at some point in the near future. Going out in a moment with my mother for a new TV. That's another story in itself which I will post when the keyboard doesn't seem to be jumping around in front of my eyeballs. Or is it my eyeballs are jumping around....

What the blazes is going on?? Yesterday.. day off.. up, showered, rubbish out and down tesco metro by 8am!!! Sorry that's just plain wrong, but no, it gets worse. Look at the time on this blog!! So far today, up, loooong shower (bloody lovely), washing in washing machine, changed bedding, about to have a coffee and I'm updating my blog. Hello, can someone please take my temperature.. I HAVE to be ill. This is just wrong.

So what's the game plan for today. Hmm, update blog, coffee, read, pray Kaaza finishes downloading episode2 of CSI:NY, oh and try and get this female out of my head. Don't get me wrong, I want her in there but at the same time I've turned into the eternal pessamist so I might as well save myself some time and energy :) Bummed though, early turn for the start of the week which means I won't see her. Anyways, enough of these thoughts. Plan is to try and do some of the New York trip piccies for the website

08:12AM when finishing this. On a Sunday.. it's so wrong!!

OMG! It's been a over a year since I last wrote in this blog. Shocking! I couldn't be arsed to update it all the time as all I ever seemed to be doing towards the end was moaning my tits off about females showing fuck all respect. So a year has gone by and has anything changed.. mmm, lets see:

Females: single (by choice)
Social Life: What's one of them?
Money: Yes, I would love some
Smoking: Still am
Living situation: Much better
Work: Pretty damn good

So lets start off with females: As what seems bloody normal with me, it came round to February (2004 this time) and lo' I found myself single again. Just before V day as well. Suffice to say I lost the plot for a bit. Luckily had a couple of friends who watched over me as I came down pretty hard from that experience. Once agian though, female splits up from me and is now trying like mad for a baby with a new partner. Mad I tell you, mad. so yeah, I thin we can safely say that I wasn't exactly thrilled with the idea of starting a family and hence why it went a bit tits up. Do I want kids one day.. who knows. As i explain to all and sundry, I still swear it's a crime against humanity to bring more redheads into the world ;-)

So yeah, after that comedown I deiceded that no, I was staying away from females. Should come with a health warning :D

Social Life: Distinct lack of. This is related to money and that I am slowly turning into an old fart I swear. I do like a damn good drink and going out but at the same time it's finding people to go out with. I do go out but i seem to have to be the responsible bugger and keep things calm. One night in Poole involved me having to grab a friend in a headlock to control him getting jealous over a female that he liked flirting with someone else. Silly bugger had already been told that she wan't interested. So if anyone is interested in going out, having a few bevvies and having a laugh. Let me know 'cos I'll be up for it. Saying that I do enjoy a good session in front of the TV watching my favorite series (West Wing/CSI/Buffy). Good bottle of wine or some serious voddie hepls things move along. Now if I can just find someone to cuddle up to as well, then superb (any takers???) *grin*

Money: Yup, earn a shitload, shame about the debt. Getting there though. enough said about that, way too depressing.

Smoking: Plan was to give up at 30, did it happen, did it fuck. I have cut down but I need to stop. #1 Health, #2 It costs the ffing earth!!

Living situation: Was living on my own, then had a flatmate, got shafted over so got a new flatmate in, new flatmate MUCH better. Pays rent on time, doesn't lie her tits off and can actually cook. Shame she doesn't like clearing up after herself but hey, can't have everything. Everyone thinks we are getting it on as well. To set the record straight. NO, we are NOT. Good friends and that's it. Messing about with flatmates can lead to having no flatmate. Though when she is walking around in her underwear it is damn nice to view ;-) Then again, she's not my type. She's blonde and I've always been attracted to brunettes.

Work: No more prosecutions work for me. Had enough of the manager deciding to shout at people (me included) thinking we were in the Army. Go stuff yourself pal. This is the railway not Basra. So it's back to being an RPI, but I do now have the Fraud champions role full time. Plus I do quite a bit of teaching up in Woking which I really enjoy. Looks like 6th of December I am going on a 5 day course which admittedly really stuffs the planned week up but I do want to do the course so we'll wait and see.

So yeah, that's a quick n dirty summary of my current life. Oh yeah, met a girl, really nice. Perfect for how I like my women, character and looks but .. there's always a but. Me thinks I will be to old. Sods law really. Meet someone you seem to connect with and there's always a snag. Oh well, nothing else, a new friend hopefully. Bloody hate getting old. Then again, miracles might occur :)

Ahhh, the weekend *smiles* Alas, the time! Jesus! I mean wtf am I doing up at this hour on my day off??

Last couple of days has been good work wise, socially it's been shit.

Work. This week I thought I had shredded the wrong set of summons. What had happened was Bournemouth Magistrates returned some that were damaged in the post. So as per procedure we shred them and re-issue them for signing by the courts. Well I swore blind at the end of the week they had returned the valid ones and I had accidently shredded them as well. Argh! We have to serve the summons with 14 days clear time from being sent out by us to the defandant and them appearing in the court. So I was beginning to flap over time as I am on a course at the start of the week. (more on that later). Popped on down to the court and asked to see someone about it and it turns out they never did send them out to me, nor did I shred the buggers. Thank God for that, being over-cautious. Will say one thing, the admin office at the court if chock full of totty *grin* I walked into their office and 10 pairs of eyes swung on to me and stared. Everywhere I looked I was getting huge beaming smiles. I did wonder if my flies were undone or something. That sort of reaction doesn't happen to me normally :)
Anyways, that panic is now over.. phew.

Yesterday was good as well with regard to work. Went for a meeting with the Thames Fraud Unit. Bloody nice setup they have up there and well clued in to stuff. Turns out I need to sort some things out down at my end with regard to the law as Hampshire (one of the counties I work in) is the trial county for a new law with regard to people working out of uniform. Basically as I am the one "full time" plain clothes Inspector on the company I need to be licensed to carry out work which involves me following people from their homes to their work via the trains. This'll be fun breaking it to my Manager that I want £150 notes from him :)

Also seems I need to be compliant with the:
Regulation of Investigatory Powers Act 2000 (Surveillance & Covert Human Intelligence Sources) Part II, section 27.
Last night I decided I HATE with a passion the ways laws are written. It's pure fucking gobbledygook. Feel free to read this and try and understand it :)
http://www.legislation.hmso.gov.uk/acts/acts2000/00023--d.htm#27


So that's work, or part of it. All good fun anyways.

I would go into social life but I think it's not a good idea. I am only going to end up ranting and ranting. Suffice to say when you get let down so many times, when a genuine reason appears to come, you look at it very cynically. I admit, I was not a happy bunny last night and to be honest I am still not. Last night was my chance to see someone. So I cancelled me going to a birthday bash in Southampton and decided to cook dinner, get wine in etc etc. I sat around a lot last night, dinner got burnt, I got upset. I haven't cried since Angela and myself split up but last night I'll admit I cried my eyes out. I hate feeling this way.

Chances of seeing this person today...?? 10 squillion to 1 me thinks. Tomorrow is defo out I know and lo, we are back into the work thing and there we go for another week. 18 days have passed and I am sure we'll hit a month before I see them again properly.

Anyways, can't sleep, sure as hell don't want to do housework so it's bum around time and wait in the vain hope of being contacted.

Laters all

Another day comes slowly to a close. Nothing special about today. In the office at 8, down to court by 12 and back home by 2pm. No complaints :) Magistrates was all okay. Nothing strenuous there. Pretty good bench, made a couple of odd decisions. Namely adjourning one of my cases AGAIN! Bastards! *grin*

Slowly making headway with the outstanding court cases in the office. I hate having to read some of the Inspectors handwriting. Looks like a spider jumped in the ink and then ran across the page for some of them. That about sums up the work side of things :)

Already had an afternoon snooze.. bliss. Game plan is to have steak for dinner.. mmm yummy :)

And with that, I am out of here. Short blog for today *smiles* May add more later

Monday is nearly over.. yay. Why yay? Because then and only then might I be able to get rid of this stupid drink induced headache that I have had all day long. My eyesballs have felt like piss holes in the snow. How this came to be.. read more :)

Cocopops came over yesterday for roast lunch (Beef) cooked by yours truly. We then went into town to drool over Angelina Jolie in Tomb Raider II. Mmmmm yummy *smiles* I have an admission to make. We went to SegaWorld (loads n loads of arcade machines) just down from the cinema and much as this is an affront to whatever manhood I may have had.. I have to admit to losing every race bar one on the driving simulators. It's sad I know but I thought I would be honest. I got my arse whipped my a girlie.

We then met up with Lou's mum and her man (Ryan) for a quick beer. Quick beer my ARSE! I don't know what time I got home last night but it sure wasn't one beer. Ryan and myself got on really well I thought. In three weeks time the four of us are off to "south of Bordeaux, France" for a week at Ryans aunts villa. Should be a total giggle :)

Anyways.. that's enough from me for now.. laters

Yes... the weekend has started .. Thank God! No work for two days.. bliss :)

I am feeling much happier in myself at the moment, and all down to one person really. I just wish they were as happy currently but alas they are not. Trying my best to make them smile but even I have to admit I can't do it all :)

I've had a really nice day just hanging out with Cocopops, messing around on the webcam and keeping each other company. Pizza was bloody nice too.. so was the Cheescake..mmmmm yummy.

Got called a child today by a lying 16 year old which I found highly amusing. such is life.. can you see me being bothered by this?? nahhhhh..... think not! :)

Tomorrow should be good. Cooking roast beef for Cocopops n myself, followed by a trip to the cinema to see a film. Don't know what we'll see but suffice to say I am sure we will enjoy ourselves stuffing outselves with soft drinks and popcorn :)

I might even get round to putting the LondonMeet piccies online that I still haven't sorted out.. but don't hold your breath on that one. Though I defo feel the need to go back to that hotel for an expensive chill out session. The room was bloody stunning, then again, so was the company *grin*

Anyways, that's enough from me for the moment.

Feeling: Like the donkey from Shrek *smirk*